Facing A Fear

Spending three days at a spa was amazing, it was so relaxing and I had the best time but it was also a big deal for me as I faced one of my biggest fears. Wearing a swimsuit for three days was one of the hardest things Ive ever had to do as I struggle with body dysmorphia, when I look at my body all I see is flaws. Body dysmorphia is something I have struggled with for four years and most of the time I just get on with it and try to stop myself worrying about it, however wearing a swimsuit its a little more difficult to do that. I knew I wanted to just get on with it and enjoy the spa, it definitely helped me to start excepting my body and my figure, I fully figured out what parts of my body I absolutely hate and what parts I don't mind. Going to the gym is a big deal for me as it helps me feel like I am really working on my body and shaping it into how I can feel confident. I know that I will never fully be happy with my body, is anyone? but this year I really want to work on excepting my figure but also work hard at the gym to change my body.